玄旖阁: September 2009

Monday 28 September 2009

心情三温暖

一下子发生这么多事，心脏不强一点都不行啊……刚才有种想撞墙的冲动（放心，是豆腐墙），然后是欲哭无泪，现在是没有任何表情了…已经不懂该用什么词、什么表情、什么感觉来形容此刻的自己……

救命～救命～救命吖～老人家不能这样刺激的……【吐血ing……】

Sunday 27 September 2009

Youtube links 之 DBSK (part 1)

Saturday 26 September 2009

Went to Sushi Tie (Parkson) yesterday with Esther(s). Didn't get to take a photo since ~~we were~~ I was rushing for time. Even had to cancel our movie-watching just because I need to call the university before 4pm Australian time. In the end, I still didn't through~

Okay, back to our ~~food~~ gathering. Just a short one before Esther H flies to UK and we may not meet up for the next three years. I guess our holidays will be totally different. I will miss you guys~ *sob sob and ask for hanky*

(almost the same figure for the price, just change it into RM ~ RM12.60)

I ordered unagi ramen which really tastes unagi. Haha.. Had been eating unagi for every Japanese meal I can get hold of these few months. Tastes similar to the food court in New World Suites' shopping centre. I love the soup! Finally got to see and taste the colourful fishball slices (?) which I only get to see in the Taiwanese programme "Good Idea". Sibu-ans don't put these flowery stuffs into steam eggs.

I'm not sure which sets did both of them ordered, but I guess it's Chicken Teriyaki Set and Chicken Katsu Set. All three of us ordered ice green tea which, as I expected, ~~has no taste~~ tastes just like green tea, a very green tea feel.

(Esther L's sushi look like the ones on the left corner, the two with black sesame)

(Tobiko)

And we later ordered 3 plates of sushi as side orders ~~because they were too slow in serving us the main meal~~. I forgot the name again. Anyway, their's contains "maki" in them.. =) Mine's got the flying fish eggs on it. You know, those red small transparent beads? 2 pieces of tiny miny ones cost me RM4.30. A bit of heartache. Haha.. Overall speaking, it's still affordable and acceptable. Plan to go try to soft shell crab when Ing Ying comes over to Sibu next month.

(We sat at the second booth on the left)

Esther H, I know you'll read this someday. So, take good care of yourself over there. We may not meet in person (this is actually not true with the presence of webcam) for years, but remember this: You are always one of my best friends, a friend I treasure!! =) 一路顺风～

Thursday 24 September 2009

BLOOD OF JESUS

It's another piece from an e-mail that I like.

One night in a church service a young woman felt the tug of God at her heart. She responded to God's call and accepted Jesus as her Lord and Savior.

The young woman had a very rough past, involving alcohol, drugs, and prostitution.

But, the change in her was evident. As time went on she became a faithful member of the church. She eventually became involved in the ministry, teaching young children.

It was not very long until this faithful young woman had caught the eye and heart of the pastor's son.

The relationship grew and they began to make wedding plans.

This is when the problems began.

You see, about one half of the church did not think that a woman with a past such as hers was suitable for a pastor's son. The church began to argue and fight about the matter.

So they decided to have a meeting. As the people made their arguments and tensions increased, the meeting was getting completely out of hand.
The young woman became very upset about all the things being brought up about her past. As she began to cry the pastor's son stood to speak. He could not bear the pain it was causing his wife to be.

He began to speak and his statement was this:
'My fiancée’s past is not what is on trial here. What you are questioning is the ability of the blood of Jesus to wash away sin. Today you have put the blood of Jesus on trial. So, does it wash away sin or not?'

The whole church began to weep as they realized that they had been slandering the blood of the Lord JesusChrist.

Too often, even as Christians, we bring up the past as a weapon against our own brothers and sisters. Forgiveness is a very foundational part of the Gospel of our Lord Jesus Christ. If the blood of Jesus does not cleanse the other person completely then it cannot cleanse us completely.

If that is the case, then we are all in a lot of trouble.

What can wash away my sins?
Nothing but the blood of Jesus!

'Cast thy burden upon the Lord, and He shall sustain thee He shall never suffer the righteous to be moved.'
(Psalm 55:23 )

A simple ending prayer :
"Father, I ask You to bless my friends, relatives and email buddies reading this right now. Show them a new revelation of Your love and power. Holy Spirit, I ask You to minister to their spirit at this very moment. Where there is pain, give them Your peace and mercy. Where there is self doubt, release a renewed confidence through Your grace.

In Jesus' precious name.
Amen "

Since a few years ago, I had realised that the biggest lesson I need to learn in this life is to forgive. I'm the kind who don't forget things easily, especially unhappy events and those who hurt me. It's like saying "I can forgive, but I'll never forget". But the point is, if I never forget, does it mean I never ACTUALLY forgive?

感谢宴

结论：

我很肥高（骗谁啊？高跟鞋帮的忙吧？）
我还真不上镜
我的个性不适合留长头发
谢谢元杰一家赏脸出席是次的感谢宴。yes，没有错，就是感谢你们家如此努力地推动我们去申请奖学金和为我祷告～当我的父母都放弃时，感谢你的父母继续鼓励我们！还有那个让我们感动不已的宣言，我们真的很感谢！比亲戚还慷慨呢～
祝福元杰和可晴学业顺利（不用猛进了～你们都可以算是top的料）
祝福伯父、伯母身体健康
祝福自己和家人一切顺利
感谢上帝赐给我们这些没有翅膀的天使！！ =）

Tuesday 22 September 2009

我……放……弃……

果然……看别人的blog超爽的！就看那些自己熟悉的东西，一直忙着点头、微笑和回忆，然后……渐渐地……忘记原本上网的目的（写blog和帮小妹找link）【被殴】

所以，我现在正式宣布：今晚我不写部落格啦！！【被鸡蛋狂砸】
真的不是我的错啦～太多部落格不能copy & paste啊……照片我还没有学会自己cut啊……还是干脆我只放文字，等下次把所有照片找齐了再做collages放上来？可是没有照片，我不能100% ~~发挥电台实力~~ 分享我的重点啊……嘛……就下一次啦……下一次再po……

好啦，稍微弥补一下我的过错，我就说个金贤重的消息啦～上次不是说到他回韩国了？有钱和时间的可以去济州岛找他？【被DSP发出通缉令抓格主乱说 XD】今天得到的新消息是……他竟然没有休息！马上投入工作！！

金贤重，你是想怎样？！真的以为自己是铁人哈？大家不都说了专辑可以延后发行？公司也说了先休息，不碍事的……我们这些支持你的人（和SS501）都不会介意演唱会挪后的！！为什么你非要操自己？！好想看皇夫人劝你给我去休息！！ http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=R3_i6aEZIdw 看吧？连新闻都说你是fragile了！你到底想怎样？（泣）

痞子英雄

（左至右：隋棠、陈意涵、周渝民、赵又廷、张钧甯、修杰楷）

Deja-vu

看完整部戏，这个感觉越来越强烈……我又自讨苦吃地喜欢男二号（吴英雄【赵又廷饰】）和女三号（雷慕莎【隋棠饰】）。所以，无可避免地又 ~~哭得稀里哗啦~~ 流泪啦……吴英雄完全有一点胜过尹智厚前辈，因为他让我在两集之内就 ~~凄惨地~~ 哭了两回。雷慕莎死的时候，我第三次流泪。然后又是男三号让我有惊艳的感觉……修杰楷很不错哦～帅呢～有让我想找他以前主演的《名扬四海》……

结论：不要因为喜欢某些特定的演员而去追戏啊！！
（苦口婆心地劝大家，然后自己又一直犯这个错 XD）

这部戏是我睽违台湾偶像剧多年后难得能够引起我兴趣并短期内追完的戏剧。最初的原因，不是因为警匪片的关系，也不是因为新面孔（真的很新，除了仔仔、乾德门、赵树海、王传一、秦沛、那维勋这些“老”演员，我只懂两个模特儿：隋棠、林嘉绮，还有Tension的Jimmy）的关系，而是因为我上次看《百万小学堂》，小燕姐访问赵又廷时“责骂”他怎么会跟隋棠拍个吻戏就流了两天的鼻血，出于色心好奇心而看的……

整部戏可以说是让观众紧张刺激到不行滴！！我妈还警告我要记得呼吸……哈哈……可是，有些文戏（爱情戏）我还是觉得很啰唆……就很想喊：“快点跳重点啦！快点快点……”

其他的嘛，不得不提，周渝民和王传一演技打进步啊！！打破偶像歌手出身不会演戏的迷思……赞哦！还有资深演员是有必要的存在！感觉他们很懂得控制戏的节奏。

赵又廷是很成功地吸引大家的目光，可是我觉得隋棠也不错……身材一级棒！表情很赞啊！邹承恩也是一颗值得期待的新星（虽然人家说赵又廷是有老爸赵树海撑腰才当男二号，可是，我觉得他演英雄比邹承恩有说服力；当然，承恩演程诺也比较有feel）。陈意涵虽然ok，可是我比较喜欢张钧甯的英文、专业和隋棠的 ~~身材、脸蛋~~ 表情、感觉……

很期待电影！！据说是电视剧的续集……

推荐这部戏的歌：《放逐爱情》、《无赖正义》。《Perfect Stranger》和《礼物》也不错。

想知道更多关于这部戏的，请到：http://www.pts.org.tw/~web03/ruffian_hero/story.htm

ps: 我并没有用两篇介绍这部戏，因为……重点都在这儿了～（小小内疚一下）

Monday 21 September 2009

just announcements

As promised, I'll announce this when we reach the target. In fact we surpassed it~ 69 comments per blog and more than half is not related to the original piece XD xiao mei, I guess this is really your style and my frequency had been tune to yours successfully. =)

ps: 5th kitten in the box~ So, it's 2 pure white, 1 pure black and 2 three-coloured (or is it four?) kittens, making the grand sum in our house :
3 humans, 1 dog, and 20 cats
(1 still missing after a cat fight with the neighbourhood's fiercest cat~ the one that even me and dad beat hard on it's back, it'll have no feel and just stare coldly at us, the fact that it normally ignores us and kept picking fight on our cats really gets on my nerves)
Expecting more to come though~ Will keep you guys updated ~~(No matter how unwilling you are)~~

a random picture of my doggy~

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri之双喜临门

First of all, Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri to all my muslim friends (though I wonder how many will read this blog, or do they even know the existence of this?). Maaf zahir dan batin.

Today's a very tiring day for me. Initially I thought there's like 30 episodes of "Black & White", so I only buffered till episode 23. Then suddenly I saw on the right hand side bar stating that 24th is the last episode. So, okay, I went online again and started to buffer. Somehow I ended up plurking for an hour or so with kueh and her friends.. LOL.. Finally decided to watch the finale at 12.02am. Heard fireworks but thought people are just too bored and played.

Woke up with a shock when mum announced it's Hari Raya today. With sleepy eyes and a lil' drowsy head, I went to become church usher. Kind of regret I didn't talk to someone. *sigh* He's nice. Opportunity wasted. And as expected, group leader announced that it's my turn to wash the 3-piece suits (I wonder is this the real name for this kind of clothing?) again. Seems like everytime I'm on duty, I need to wash those clothes. Okay, I admit, 'cause I didn't go often. (kneel)

When we came back, I told mum I really need to catch a nap (is this correct? sounds weird though) before going out. Just then, someone really pissed me off. Who on earth will tie up a cat's stomach? My cat's pregnant, okay?! Geez.. Spoilt my mood nia..

Anyway I still manage to fall asleep and refuse to wake up when dad called me. After he sighed really loud, complaining to mum that I'm in deep sleep, I had to force myself up. Being lazy is something not recommended. I was too lazy to sit up and open the door, and end up twisting my whole body and sprained (?) my left shoulder =.=lll

Things became better when we went out visiting. I'll put them in point form, Chinese (no subtitles, sorry XD)

今年带了大舅母跟我们一起拜年……话说，她从来没有去过马来人的家拜年啊……当妈妈咪跟我说是，我就很认真地想，这个好像没有发生过在我的生命里，因为，从小我就是跟老爸到处拜年的小家伙……农历新年最高纪录16家；开斋节最高纪录应该是10家。
我们第一家去的就是传说中女主人的金项链价值10万令吉的～可是……可是……啊！！！做莫会这样？！我去了3年都没有看到！！今年她竟然去亲戚家了……呜呜……妈咪连看了两年，还能给我形容的有声有色……看来我是真的跟那条项链无缘啦……他们家的糯米饭很好吃！跟我同岁的儿子前年结了婚，今年宝宝都开始会跑了……
第二家是我没有去过的……到了看到客厅的照片赫然发现是我们学校有个很厉害的学弟……那就算了……竟然是我学生的家！就是那个很厉害的马来学弟的妹妹，我教她geografi啊……那家的小孩读书真的很厉害一下……哥哥是参加各个全国赛的；妹妹给我地理拿满分……
第3家是我妈热到快晕的家……哈哈……年年我们去他们家都刚好是很热的天气……闷热闷热的……不过今年看到新款的baju kurung，等我瘦一点了，也许也可以去做那种style的……还有，终于看到我很爱的沙爹花生酱……
第4家就热情很多啦～是我老爸的旧同事（其实除了第3家是JKR的，其他都是SBW的）。他的老婆啊，超热情的，一直抱着我亲……哈哈……他的媳妇还真会生，12年生了5胎……今年刚刚添了个女娃娃……三个月大，几可爱的……然后其他的孙子都是男的嘛，12岁的长孙还蛮腼腆的……其他的拉着我的手叫kakak，吓我一跳……哈哈……跟我salam时还用额头抵住，让我不得不跟他爷爷也这样……嘛……我不是回教徒啊……哈哈……然后跟他的曾祖母也是要礼数到尽……那个老婆啊，还跟我妈说她瘦了，以为我妈病了……呵呵……一直嘱咐她要好好照顾身子。对了，问你们哦，我这3年有改变很多咩？做莫他们家的人一直说我一下子长大许多？
第5家就是每年我们农历新年的蛋糕供应商……哈哈……他们家7个孩子都是念华小的～可是我们每次去，他们都说他们累瘫了……哈哈……我们总是以他们家为结束点；他们也总是以我们作为结束点，收拾了睡午觉去～
今年去了5家……我个人觉得吃得还好饱，倒是3个大人吃饱到可以省略晚餐……哈哈……

结论：生长在马来西亚是命中注定，但是我很感谢神让我活在诗巫。砂拉越没有恐怖的种族主义，有的只是浓浓的人情味和关心，让人倍感温暖～

看到张相～

Super Junior 赴港开唱拒谈强仁殴斗事件

2009/09/18 18:27:46
●南洋商报

香港18日讯-韩国人气组合Super Junior周五晚在香港亚洲博览馆举行《The 2nd Asia Tour Super Show 2》演唱会，原本13名成员的SJ只会有12名成员上阵，而日前在首尔一间酒吧涉暴力殴斗事件的强仁，周五才会到港参与演出，而另一成员起范因为受伤而缺席。

强仁周五照赴港
周四午SJ举行演唱会招待会，只有10名成员出席，分别是神童、始源、韩庚、希澈、晟敏、圭贤、东海、银赫、艺声与厉旭。虽然大会有要求传媒集中问SJ演唱会与工作问题，不过，会上记者继续追问强仁的情况时，全程戴着口罩的希澈代表回答，他说这件事上他们没有话要向传媒讲，只道SJ永远会下足心机工作，感谢大家关心。

强仁涉殴斗录像助查
另外，据韩国媒体报道，强仁涉嫌暴力事件的相关监控录像，已被警察局找到，预计周五公开相关监控录像的分析结果。

新闻重点是：
强仁在本月16日凌晨3点35分左右，在首尔江南区某酒店与自己的一名好友喝酒时与其他客人发生纠纷，最终演变成了暴力斗殴。

我的重点却是：

什么？！Ki Bum受伤了？！（我的《联合日报没有报告这段叻～还好我有去看《南洋网》

看到这张照片，脑中浮现几句评语：

韩庚果然坐中间。
始源果然坐韩庚旁边。
希澈是防范H1N1还是当忍者？
厉旭果然是ryewook……害我昨天看《酷我》的歌词，一直想不到谁是旭，还得从头把每个团员的名字列出来……
看到我很喜欢的K.R.Y了～开心开心～尤其是艺声和圭贤的表情，好……他们啊……

Friday 18 September 2009

不可思议的事情

发生了很多不可思议的事～严格来说，每件事情发生必定有它的原因，可是如果我们没有仔细地去研究，凡事凭着感觉走，有些事情，将之归类为不可思议，比较简单啦～哈哈……

等了整整3天，等到的竟然是5次的“铃……铃……铃……嘟嘟嘟……”总共100声“铃”～今天没有上班吗？
看《痞子英雄》竟然也能哭！有人看警察戏到哭的吗？！
吴英雄竟然战胜尹智厚，让我哭……而且不止一次，是两次！in just 2 episodes……好啦，虽然都是新演员，either赵又廷真的有演戏的天分，or金贤重真的来自外太空……还是……生长在演艺世家是有差别的？
我能把吹风筒用到烧焦～是真的有火花+烟从plug冒出来……
然后，新的吹风筒，第一天用就把头发给吸进去……

又少了一撮头发

我们家的前院，小小的，竟然能让我妈种15种以上的植物……

我原来也是有艺术感的！我很爱的偶然从我的房间窗口往外拍的夕阳照（难得被妈咪赞赏的）
原来我也会写出深奥的句子滴！哈哈……上帝真的有赐我文字的天分吖～【我笑，不是因为我开心，而是，因为我想开心】【到底是时间改变了人，还是人本来就善变？】

Facing the Giants

Finally understand why Jed strongly recommend this movie and why Esther's mum saved this in the computer.

Truly love it! Can't help but cried almost throughout the whole movie. Had to use a towel (yeah, face towel, not tissues). I even joked that I was dehydrated from crying~

It's the first movie that I can't describe with words.. Normally I'm ~~pro~~ good in babbling over movie and drama stuffs. But somehow, I don't know how to promote this. What I can say is:

go watch it yourself and pay attention to the dialogues
don't bother preparing tissues. They are never enough. Plus, it's not environment-friendly. Go get yourself a big hanky~
I don't watching this over and over. It's simply AWESOME!!

Never give up. Never back down. Never lose faith.

It's special in the way that it's a Christian-based movie, by a church. Even the pastor took part in the film-making.

Parts where I weep (badly):

"If God doesn't give a baby, will you still love Him?"
"Now, tell me, what thing is impossible with God?" "Nothing!" "Are you sure?" "Yes, sir!"
"Coach Taylor, you make it to the team." "What team?" "The daddy team."
"David! David!" (and his father raises his hands, as if he's praising the Lord)
When Brock Kelley finished the whole-field "Death Crawl"
Last but not least, when I hear this song: With You (by Mark Willard)http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GoF9JCo5EJI

Parts where I laughed out loud:

Coach Bobby Lee Duke eating his lollipop and shouting. (ps: He's actually a pastor! Executive pastor at Sherwood Baptist Church. cute~)
basically every scene Brady Owens and JT Hawkins (may your wife rest in peace...) came out together.

I know I'm quite late at watching this. I did heard about this when it was out a few years ago but just didn't seem to see it on anywhere in Sibu. I didn't bother to search the bookstores either, thinking it's just ANOTHER movie. （跪)

Thank you Jed for pestering me to watch this.
Thank you Esther for driving me to pick up the DVD.
Thank you Alvin for willing to lend me this (although you didn't know in the beginning).

Thank you Sherwood Baptist Church for presenting the world such a touching movie. It certainly helps us to re-think of what is and should be our ultimate goal in life, how can we serve God and the appropriate attitude towards our religion. Of course, I am glad many become Christians or had the effort to search who is this Jesus Christ that Christians claimed to be so powerful.

*Thumbs up and claps and cheers for the whole production team*
（eagerly waiting for "Fireproof"）

受不了我自己

对！！就是受不了自己能拖篇文章这么久！好像是8月还是什么时候就构思好的部落格，没有打半篇……那就算了，WGM的生菜couple我嘛是让它当draft好几天了……发现真的不可以上网写部落格，因为……一旦开始启动search engine，就会流连在别人的部落格很久很久……然后为了减轻罪恶感（上网是要钱滴！）我就顺便buffer《痞子英雄》在youtube。再然后，好咯，buffer料2集，不得不看，是不是？从晚上10点or11点开始看……然后然后，又是凌晨1点睡……就算午夜12点就看好了，嘛是很犯贱无聊地又玩个游戏到凌晨1点……是怎样？！有魔咒吗？LOL……

干脆把WGM的生菜couple的draft删除，重新来过～不得不把它分成4篇，因为，发现太多照片了！！！我很想很想跟你们分享啊～咋办？呵呵……

发现blogspot好像改变很多啊……比较user-friendly（还是因为有我要的function，所以我的满意度提高？哈哈……）highlighter、strike through等等都有了，甚至可以cut & paste了……万岁！！我就是喜欢五颜六色的文章（ah teo非常不明白我的了解）吖～看料不会睡着呗……现在我还在努力（有一点，而已）地学怎样用这个部落格……什么hidden link啊，自己的template啊都不会……我还想学怎样做collage……照片太多不会并排放啊……还有，我想从youtube的videos把某些scenes剪出来，可是不懂要去哪里学……自己慢慢摸呗～不过，如果有人懂，请不要吝啬地赐教～我等着你来教，我等着你来教……

ok，先把自己要写的title列出来，比较有刺激、提醒作用：

We Got Married (ssangchu couple)预计4篇
Dong Bang Shin Ki 预计4篇
SS501预计4篇
Super Junior预计4篇
我的半成功cheese cake
我的申请进度报告
《痞子英雄》预计2篇
《我的回忆之你还记得吗？》预计10篇？（幼稚园、小学2、中学4、国民服务2、比赛）

然后，欠（自己）好多年的两部短篇小说（考虑该上载在这儿，还是放在worldchinesewriters的forum？）：

《大家族》（古装）
《他·她·他们·她们》（现代）

好了，文字的债大致上就欠这么多了……还有的，先让我 ~~自欺欺人~~ 睁一只眼闭一只眼地略过吧～

震惊世界的……猪？！

笑话一则：

某天，熊、老虎和猪一起聚会（为什么猪敢跟另两只这么凶猛的动物在一块儿？别问我……笑话是不需要逻辑的）。

熊：我只要吼一声，就会震惊整个村庄！

老虎：切～我啊，只要吼一声，就会震惊整个森林！！

猪（懒懒地）：切～切～我只要打个喷嚏，就能震惊整个世界！！！H1N1听过没？

=.=lll

炸到有没有？雷到有没有？

其实……其实……我的重点是……

我亲爱的金贤重被确诊患甲型流感，在日本被隔离观察。（第一个被确诊的韩国艺人）

当我9号从Facebook的Triple S那边得到消息时，我还有点怀疑，因为毕竟正式的报章都还没有相关消息。可是，我有想到，SS501刚刚离开大马，尤其是在Genting刚刚举办了Fan Meet，总是觉得有关联。因为他们在KK几乎没有什么接触到人群，KL那个是1000++的歌迷啊……果然吧？在日本被证实是在马来西亚感染的……

唉……怎么会这样？真担心啊……生病的人本来就要好好休息，怎么会觉得自己是铁人？5号就不舒服了，竟然只是自己简单服药……现在是说至少要留院（日本）观察15天。原本是30天，可是金亨俊说只要14天？随便啦……我只要leader-sshi赶快康复……

但是啊，小妹，为什么我有种不好的预感——那个亚洲巡回演唱会将延迟叻？

话说，虽然这是大家都不愿意看到的是，但是，会不会，我只是硬要找个理由，这场病能让他好好休息？我很想看到健健康康、白白胖胖的leader-sshi啊……现在他只要当他自己就好了，不必想要演尹智厚而刻意减肥（我实在看不出他哪里需要减？）了……

ps: 所属经纪公司DSP于9号通过电话连线表示“许永生是和金贤重一起在日本多待了一天。但那只因为两人原本关系就很好，所以许永生多陪了金贤重一天。许永生并在第二天晚上回国。除了金贤重之外的其他成员检查结果均无异常反应。” (Some rumoured that Youngsaeng also got A H1N1)

I thought the most awkward members were these two eldest? The members voted them on a show... Anyway, I guess this is something good about being in a band/group~ having people to care and share with..

Friday 11 September 2009

给电视迷的小小警告4

很主观的大结局评委～

终于在星期四赶完了《花样男子》，续而感到很空虚……呵呵……连我妈都不明白我为什么要在短短2个星期（其实大约12天而已）赶完25集的连续剧……因为爱啊……对金贤重的爱啊……哈哈……

果然，大结局后，我的心更痛了……其实它是不完整的happy ending；不完整的在于，一看就知道是为了续集埋的伏笔；happy ending是Jun Pyo和Jan Di正如漫画（原著）在一起。那么，做莫我还会心痛叻？当然因为我最爱的Ji Hoo啊……到了最后，他还是默默守候……就像claire说的，看到他一直付出，而我们都知道那是没有回报的爱，你说你说，能不心痛吗？T.T

第3、4、5次的流泪终于是因为Ji Hoo了……好啦，我承认，第3和第5次是因为他爷爷的在场……话说，资深演员还真的功力十足啊……不用多说什么，就能催人泪……有点不记得细节了，总之，Ji Hoo出现的画面，虽然他温柔的举动如此的为Jan Di着想，就是难免感觉到浓浓的悲伤……【叹】真的，真的，不要因为喜欢某个演员而追连续剧啊！

经典台词之一：“I'm not sure when I started to feel this way, but……I cannot live without you……”
然后，Jan Di还是拒绝他……把家传戒指还给他就算了，还跟他说不能忘记Jun Pyo什么的……再然后就哭啊哭的，再再然后Ji Hoo又要说：“没关系……真的没关系……”又得抱住她、安慰她……整个就是@#$%^&*…… xP

Jae Kyung虽然只客串几集，可是我真的很喜欢她啊～除了之前说的因为我希望她跟Jun Pyo在一起（因为这样Ji Hoo才能跟Jan Di在一起嘛）和她的直率外，看到最后两集Yu Mi的出现，更爱她吖……光明磊落又干脆帅气，一个字：酷！

有时候真的很想跑进戏里跟她和Ji Hoo喊说：“拜托你们贪心点！友谊和爱情都兼顾！如果Jun Pyo能，为什么你们还要牺牲自己？！真是气死我了……”明明Jae Kyung才适合Jun Pyo啊……连他们的思维都是一样的，长久的感情需要的是这种看似无厘头，其实比谁都了解对方心思的伴侣……总是不看好Jan Di和Jun Pyo……是因为我太现实吗？呵呵……

我知道很这样也许会被人k，可是有时候我真的会被Jan Di annoy到……要就要，不要就不要，能不能不要一直给Ji Hoo机会保护你，然后越来越依赖你，仿佛你是他的氧气般？真的很讨厌看到那种拖拖拉拉、剪不清理还乱的感情纠葛……看到我很累啊……还有那个每次Jun Pyo说重要的话，总是有某某交通工具经过，然后引擎声盖住，然后他微笑离开，留下傻傻的Jan Di说：“他说什么啊？”然后就结束这个adegan……整个=.=lll

还有更扯的，Jun Pyo被车撞倒时，Ji Hoo拨电话求救。“My friend is dying! I said my friend is dying!” 什么地址、伤势都没有说清楚就有救护车自动出现，然后送他们去医院？LOL……

虽然是漫画改编，但是有些生活化的东西可以把它们真实化吗？那些有钱人可以不把普通人当人、高中生就可以去酒吧把妹、F4拥有自己的独立课室、学生可以随时翘课、周末搭飞机去New Caledonia（原来真的有这个地方的存在）度假放松心情，我都可以接受……漫画嘛……可以不切实际的……但是毕竟是戏啊，能不能把基本的衣食住行和求救（这个我就是很强调）稍微改得贴近我们的生活一点点？

大家很讨厌的姜会长（Jun Pyo的妈妈——Chairwoman Kang）我其实蛮欣赏的……她把角色演的恰如其人……她很爱她的家人，只是那个爱的方式我们不能接受罢了……相同的情况还有Jan Di的父母，尤其是那个妈妈，真的是爱钱如命……还有还有，Lee Min Ha / Min Jae Ha （是一人分饰两角）……可是就是因为有这么鲜明的个性，所以戏才特别好笑……

另外，管家、秘书、Ga Eul、Yi Jung、Woo Bin、Seo Hyun、Jun Hee、餐厅老板、Ji Hoo的爷爷（前总统）、Min、Eun Jae （Yi Jung的前女友）等人，我都喜欢……尤其是两个美女姐姐，赞啦！

结论：

不要因为喜欢某个演员而追电视剧，除非他/她是男/女一号，外加有happy ending……
漫画改编的剧情会有一点点夸张，但是，请记得它就是戏一部，不要太过追究里面不切实际的情节……
最好能接受它的剧情安排，不然心痛到底的是自己……
想要瞬间爆红的方法，除了演偶像剧的男主角，还有比较轻松的路就是唱主题曲/片尾曲……我已经不知不觉会SS501的《Because I'm Stupid》
在看到原戏之前，不要去看fan-made的video，因为很多误导人的……（我还以为Jan Di有这么多机会还Ji Hoo的戒指还是Jan Di得到癌症什么的，根本是爷爷给他的戒指而让他想起妈妈的剧情！）
请一定要看NG片段和节目采访，因为比较好笑+轻松……http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=A_K11cai9I0&feature=related 金贤重的言论让我笑到流泪……
原来，金贤重也有小小缺点——他的右鼻孔比左鼻孔大。是不是可以断定他没有整容过呢？

总的来说，我还是很喜欢《花样男子》的……即使故事情节并不像我要的那样走，可是我因为已经知道了，所以我还是能接受滴～

可是如果有Part 2，我不知道他们会怎么改编，也不知道到时候能不能接受，因为《F4 story after 5 years》Ji Hoo那个部分根本没有拍，只是把之前的来个浓缩版（我也知道金贤重很忙），不过那个浓浓的悲伤感变得更浓了啊……据说是到最后他都没有爱人啊……难怪编剧把他爷爷死了的剧情改成心脏病发，免得一众爱Ji Hoo sunbae的婆婆妈妈、姐姐妹妹心痛流泪啊……

还有，可以请他们先拍好了才上映吗？看到后期的演员一个个黑眼圈严重到像熊猫，观众心是会痛的……听到金贤重说拍了137天全部工作人员平均都瘦了5-6公斤啊……

Wednesday 9 September 2009

其实我有很多话想bla但是犹豫着该不该讲然后最后选择憋在心里好难受啊

嘛……就像title那样，我其实有很多很多话想说，可是，虽然没有网上ISA这种东西，我还是要顾虑到很多人的感受，所以好多事情只能憋在心里，不能说的秘密（？）有点让我难受啊……

即使是启动filter，还是有些文章不想让有些人看到……厌厌啊……

结论：只写能端出来的东西来syok sendiri……

61163

今天不是鼓励大家去买5D（有这种东西吗？我最近没有跟了，都忘光了）

原来压力真的会让人变瘦。但是，更稀奇的是，原来在家腐化也会让体重下降！上次（某年某月某一天）量的时候，我是68kg（是滴～就是这么重！比允浩和贤重都肥……自己都很嫌自己一下……哈哈……），今天早上去量的时候只剩61kg。

结论：STPM和教书都有压力，在家无所事事和等信是精神折磨）

原来人（青少年）是会变矮的。依然是某年某月某一天量的体高，我好不容易长到165cm，比护照上的163cm整整高出2cm，高兴的哩……结果，今天量了，又是163cm。到底我是原本就没有长高（白高兴一场），还是我真的变矮了？

结论：真的不要驼背，因为体高真的会susut掉～

6.5

Got my IELTS certificate today. Shocking and disappointing.

Listening 8.5 【1 wrong. Acceptable and expected.】
Reading 9.0 【Totally a lovely surprise~】
Writing 6.5 【What is this?!】
Speaking 8.0 【Improvement】

Conclusion:

有补跟没有补是有差别的！
原来reading是可以拿满分的。
虽然有进步（半个band），可是，很明显的，writing就是我的软肋……【泣】
speaking是需要练的！
也许，我想当律师还不是很够格……
感谢上帝，让我achieve到我想要的成绩，虽然……跟我预料的有点出入 =)

Tuesday 8 September 2009

给电视迷的小小警告3

第3学期鉴定报告

好了，我们继续很bias地讨论《Boys Over Flower》吧～不要K我啊……我开始看这部戏就是很bias的料～哈哈……

因为不单纯的原因而开始追看，所以，这篇报告理所当然（？）的很不客观……哈哈……

越来越明白为什么金贤重第一次演戏就被封为“国民前辈”了……角色实在太讨喜（？）了……完全把婆婆妈妈、姐姐妹妹的心给拉拢过来了啦～
温柔到不切实际……（嘛当然了……是漫画改编的啊！）
体贴到不切实际……（你有在听我说话吗？是漫画！）
连他的微笑都会melt my heart……（这个……跟漫画无关【自动闪】）

也许是因为他饰演的吧，不管漫画的故事如何诉说着Gu Jun Pyo才应该是Geum Jan Di的真命天子，我都还是一路支持Ji Hoo sunbae（连称呼都不一样）到底……哈哈……甚至，当我看到Jun Pyo在机场瘫软坐在地上哭的时候，我的心痛到底是因为Jan Di不明白Jun Pyo的心，还是因为Ji Hoo被Jun Pyo打？

所以，当Ha Jae Kyung出现时，我一点都没有讨厌她，反而很支持她去“驯服”未婚夫Jun Pyo，这样一来，Jan Di就会投入Ji Hoo的怀抱啦！哈哈……皆大欢喜（我而已吗？）啊～不过，说实话，Jae Kyung的个性真的像Ga Eul说的，很难令人讨厌啊……直爽、不做作、坦白，即使她撒了点小谎而伤害到Jan Di，我都能因为爱而接受……我最欣赏她的就是当她把Jan Di当朋友时，她真的可以为她付出很多……两肋插刀吖～就因为Jan Di要免费的50张ramen餐劵，她可以毫不犹豫就参加吃拉面比赛……那个真的超级大碗啊……无可否认，她是因为有钱（超级有钱）而办到那么多事，但是，我看到的却是她单纯的心……

嗯……我想……我的分享就先在这边告一段落吧～很快就要看完+写整部戏的感想了～
敬请期待！=）

PS: Seoul International Drama Awards 2009最受欢迎的男女艺人就是“国民妹妹”和“国民前辈”啦～

Monday 7 September 2009

101th post~

축하합니다 or rather 축하해 chuka hae to myself!! 3 great news to share:

I finally received that long-awaited letter. Now rushing to get things done before Hari Raya Puasa.

Received my IELTS results too. Overall band 8.0 YES!!! Thanks for those who cared and prayed. I'm not sure about the details. Will only drop by Nanyang tomorrow.

I had wrote 100 blog posts! Achievement yay~ 呵呵……

其他的小小报告：

早上让自己心情不好的盆栽小猫咪原来是假的！而且，还是我早就知道的=.=ll 不得不认老啊……呜呜……

再追看一集就可以来个第三学期的鉴定报告了……想到越来越接近大结局就有点伤心……真的太入迷了……

被人访问做project哦！哈哈……几有成就感一下……表piak我嘛……让我小小虚荣一下嘛……syok sendiri，tau？哈哈

很多很多朋友都要去英国了……很遗憾自己不能成为一分子……但是，上帝开启的这扇门，必有祂的用意。我真的有很努力学习顺服……请继续为我祷告……

this ruin my day : bonsai cat

I'm sure this is not the first time I read it, but it still hurts me much whenever I see the photos. Might as well put it up here and see if anyone knows how we can stop those cruel and ruthless people.

original e-mail

original newpaper cutting in the e-mail

I'll cut this short. I just can't understand where's the beauty of bonzai cat? All I can feel is cruelty and brainless/thoughtless deed. Luring them into bottles with toys and then locking them up. Throughout the days, only 2 straws are used: 1 for feeding them with liquidify food, 1 for cleaning their waste. The poor cats can't move AT ALL. If they don't die of torture in the process, they need to endure the pain helplessly. The kittens are even fed with a special chemical substance to soften their bones and so to be able to take the shape of the bottles.

Yup, my first reaction is not cry but the wish to slap that person who invented this. I mean, where's his conscience? Treasure and respect life, whatever form it is, is the only correct thing to do.

God gave us the power to control/rule this world because He believes us that we'll help him with love, not to make animals vanish from Earth with hatred.

给电视迷的小小警告2

mid-term assessment of 《Boys over Flower》。I'll try to make this short since I'd forgotten parts of it (sorry~). I'd just finished episode 17, I guess I can write the 3rd quarter 小小总结tomorrow.

第二次心痛竟然是因为Jupiter!就是Gu Jun Pyo的那匹马被他累到从此不能走路……当下真的很想去给男主角一拳！看看人家尹智厚（Jihoo sunbae）的白马（这个很特别一下，他的马叫Rui，也就是花泽类的类）！健健康康的，还能带Jan Di去看雪……

接下来的心痛，应该都是为了Ji Hoo啦……所以我说嘛，千万不能因为喜欢某个演员而去追戏剧，不然心狂抽痛的就是自己啦……不管那个男一号有多么好的理由得到女主角的爱（根本就是编剧的错），我就是希望我最爱的男二号成功追求……而且……而且……我因此看不到男一号、三号、四号的帅了……噢～～～

结论：
爱得好累，真的好苦……
他的甜从来不会让人觉得腻，相反的，让人觉得心痛，心痛得让人想流泪……

Saturday 5 September 2009

第一次去青团

对了，你没有看错，我终于向天恩堂的青团报到了～～

从少团推辞到青团，推了快6年，自己嘛是很歹势一下……这次几乎可以确定前程了，终于可以放心去，终于可以鼓起勇气去……

跟我想象中的差不多，就是那种人数不是很多（多到去很多年都未必懂全部人的那种），大约20个吧……感觉很像中六的物理班，顶多加几个生物班的吧……呵呵……很温暖的感觉，大家都会握手欢迎……而且好几个原本就认识的，还有的就是常常会在崇拜看到的大哥哥大姐姐们……

填表格时忍不住微笑，因为，现在的表格都很可爱啊～很像在写毕业纪念册，就是那种很多格要填的那种……还有问部落格的诶～呵呵……

然后啊，很意外的是，今晚感觉好像我是去领奖品的……第一次去，青团就有准备小小的欢迎礼物；正好今天有3个从别的教堂来观摩（？）的，他们也带了礼物，我就这样白白赚2把pen……也许是上帝要我多写关于祂的事迹？^^

今天的主题是查经会：约翰福音第7章。牧师提醒我们一定要记得一句话：“上帝掌控一切”。所以很多事情，也许我们当下不明白，时间久了，我们自然会悟出道理来……巧的是，我今天下午刚刚跟妈咪说起这句话！

还有更巧的……早上在跟庆惠说起不喜欢的两个人，今晚的经文朗诵就是关于被朋友出卖的诗篇第55章和请求上帝施援的诗篇第56章～

上帝真的有祂的时间表，我们要学习的是顺服，完全的顺服……

今晚因为比预定时间迟结束，老爸在外面等了整半个小时，所以我选择提早离开……希望下个星期能去完整场……

回来跟妈咪报告的心情结论是：我很开心！有种如释重担（？）的感觉……每次去教堂都有被reenergize的feel……

ps 1: 今天终于跟庆惠碰面了！吃了早餐（心情特好，就点了粿杂小的一碗+roti canai telur planta一盘），还去了学校一趟，找到可能性蛮高的新工，我想我比较喜欢这份熟悉的工作。还有一份后备工，迟些再确定……

ps 2: 我们乘庆惠成绩还没有出炉，就毅然决定去元杰家坐坐……自己都觉得不可思议会临时来这种idea……兄弟，不好意思，打扰了……去他家就被瞬间养肥了……哈哈……豆奶、豆腐花、苹果派……啊～～～也跟阿姨聊了一会儿……然后，借到了他们极力推荐的《Facing the Giants》得快些看完，星期五要还鼎胜。

ps 3: 庆惠果然pass了～很快就要飞去英国了……羡慕啊……开心的同时也伤感……我想我就是要装悲伤的伪开朗人……呵呵……

ps 4: mid-term assessment on Boys Over Flower就再等几天吧……

ps 5: 刚才敢敢吃一碟干盘下去，现在想睡都不能……明天早起跑步的计划……看来又是泡汤了～

ps 6: 期待星期一的来临～

晚安啦，各位！祝：美梦一个～ muacks!!

Thursday 3 September 2009

给电视迷的小小警告

如果你像当年的我一样，是不分昼夜、不管类型、不理内容的标准电视迷，那就请止步吧！这篇不适合你～ =)

但是，如果你是属于看电视剧要求颇高/凭感觉的现代电视迷，我必须慎重“警告”你，追电视剧千万不要单纯因为喜欢某个角色by某个演员，不然你会很痛苦的……

亲身体验：

（这5个人当中，Kim Joon(25)最大，然后竟然是Koo Hye Sun (25) 【保养太好了！】，center是Kim Hyun Joong (23)，再来是Lee Min Ho (22)，magnae是Kim Bum (20)）

因为金贤重而去追《花样男子》……第一集的开场因为“神话集团”而让我忍不住继续往下看（脑中浮现的句子却是：神话有跟他们收肖像权的费用吗？）然后金丝草（Geum Jan Di）【Koo Hye Sun 饰】出现的画面实在太好笑了，就决定追了！！

很期待尹智厚（Yoon Ji Hoo）【金贤重饰】的出现……结果……结果……（因为事先有人告诉我看尹智厚这个角色会感到浓浓的悲伤，我就很早早做好心理准备）……第一个让我哭的人却是女主角……第一个让我有心痛的感觉是尹智厚的前女朋友（Min Seo Hyun）【Han Chae Young 饰】×我一定要说！！韩彩英很漂亮啊！！高挑的身材，太赞了！！×……当这两个女生出现在他的身旁时，眼光总是不知不觉被她们吸引……结果……我就得一直rewind，就为了看金贤重的脸……（痴心的粉丝啊……【叹】）话说，有一幕他说：“I'm cold……” 低沉的声音有让我的心跳漏了一拍，而且是重播几次，就漏了几拍……+) 我个人觉得，很多时候，他在演他自己……尤其是跟Seo Hyun说：“我不喜欢这张照片（超级迷你连身裙）”，根本就是金贤重的心声啊……表情什么的都很自己啊……

其他F4成员和配角，我个人蛮喜欢So Yi Jung 【Kim Bum 饰】。帅哥一个，竟然比我小！！羡慕啊～～

还有女主角的朋友Chu Ga Eul 【Kim So Eun 饰】也是比我小！！啊～～～
别问我为什么呐喊，女人对年龄这回事总是特别敏感滴！

不得不说，金丝草的弟弟（Geum Kang San ）【Park Ji Bin 饰】让我颇为意外。这个小朋友还真红啊～到处都可以看到他似的……在这部戏剧当中，减去资深的30岁以上演员，这个小朋友的拍戏资历几乎在中间了，超越一众男女主角、男女配角……人家2003年就开始投身戏剧界了……MBC、KBS的儿童演员奖都得过了……

我觉得Jan Di的父母都很可爱，她打工地方的manager也是，还有Gu Jun Pyo 【Lee Min Ho 饰】的管家和秘书都很性格一下。

3个捣乱（？）团，我原本没有很喜欢，可是，其中一个就是拍到一半就自杀的女演员，我就忽然没有很讨厌去……

SS501客串演出，看得出亨俊小小紧张噢……圭钟很意外地很抢镜……永生的镜头稍嫌太少……

女主角的假好朋友Oh Min Ji 【Lee Si Young 饰】，我原本以为洋娃娃般的她只是花瓶一个，想不到演技不错哦～心理变态层次和委屈痛苦都演得很好……

我很喜欢的金贤珠就快出场了，她饰演男主角的姐姐Gu Jun Hee。

好了，我们回到重点>> 因为是冲着金贤重而开始看的，所以，当Jan Di可能选择Jun Pyo时，我的心就开始抽痛了（太入戏了吧你）……每次他很痛苦时，我也很难过啊……现在才看完6集啊……我该怎么撑到第25集的大结局啊？×痛苦痛苦痛苦× 尤其是已经知道最终Jan Di 不会选Ji Hoo，我该怎么办啊？（喂！Get hold of yourself！）【叹】可是，因为真的很不错，我决定看完整片后再去下载……×自虐×

Wednesday 2 September 2009

后悔

后悔之所以被称为后悔的原因，你知道吗？

后——往往都是事情发生以后，我们才会后悔。能在事情发生之前就觉悟，你要么先知，要么是成功人士。

悔——忏悔自己所做的事，用心去想每件错事。

好吧，你可以忽略我这个在睡觉前忽然想到的解释法。

ps: 今天没有去找工作，在家里等信，不过……好像……没有诶～待会儿得拨电话了……【叹】

Exams

Exams are supposed to test what we know, right?

Why does exam always makes us disappointed with ourselves?

It's like no matter how hard you try, the questions varies from the book and the logic suddenly changes.

And then we'll be weeping that we didn't try hard enough. That we should have studied more. That we should ignore the TV and computer earlier.

The worst part is when you knew you understood, you knew the answer but when you look at the paper when given back, you wrote something really absurd. Of course, this includes circling the wrong answer or even blacken the wrong oval on the subjective paper.

I used to love exams. It's like the sole way to prove my existence. I'm totally not the atheletic type. But after major "failures" (a.k.a results not up to my expectations), I felt tired. Yet I still want exams to prove that the last failure was just because a minor slip. Contradictory personality, ain't?

Future

Future's full of unexpectancy
What's behind the bush?
What's waiting for us at the end of the long winding road?
Hope or despair?
That's what I'm afraid of,
the feeling of insecureness...

Tuesday 1 September 2009

I'm tired and sick, am I THAT old?

Went out before 9am to look for jobs.

Started off with SMK Bukit 5 which is the nearest to my house. Nice guard. Petite principal. Friendly staffs. No vacancies.

Went to SMK Lanang. Tough guard. OK clerk. I think I saw James Fam. No vacancies.

Next is SJK (C) Thai Kwang. Homely feel. Friendly clerks. Known headmaster. A bit headache from the screaming+running kids and that fertiliser smell I ocassionally smelt during church service. No vacancies.

4th on the list is SMK Bukit Assek. Warm guard with a cute (?) dog. Nice teachers. OK vice principal. No vacancies.

Then I hopped in SMK Chung Hua. Cute old guard. Friendly teachers. Smiling vice principal. No vacancies.

Lastly, I entered SJK (C) Tiong Hin. A-bit-fierce guard. Cute clerk. Super-cute headmaster. OK vice principal. Finally, a maybe-yes vacancy in the second half of this month. YES!!! 哈利路亚～

Ended the job search at 11.30am. So tiring after walking so much. I think it's the most rigorous exercise I had in months. Good start of this month (?) 's plan to get rid some of my fat. Why oh why do the government schools need to be this big?! It's like 5 HUGE buildings there with sufficient parking lots and only 3 were used? LOL... Even the teachers' office were much better than Metho. You know those government departments with cushioned dividers? Ah... How I wish I am part of the staff *being whacked for 虚荣* I guess the only school I didn't get lost was Chung Hua. Mind you, I am the kind that really have the sense of direction.

Caught a few drops of rain when coming out from SMK Lanang (the guard refuses my car to enter after she saw my school logo). By the time I bathed at 4pm, I was having sorethroat and running nose. Duh~ I guess I'm going to fall ill anytime, soon.

Still no letter from JPA. Really worried now. *sigh*

Plan to hunt for another job tomorrow with the hope of securing a job by next week. Of course, a high-paid salary kind XD

Hooked on YouTube once more. It's 《花样男子》this time. Honestly, I watched this because of Kim Hyun Joong. Plus, there's such a big commotion. And... I didn't regret tuning into episode 1. It's so hilarious, yet sad at a point (anyway, someone told me to be ready for this emotion, but I think it's too early to feel this. I am supposed to feel this at the later stage), and make me angry at times. I'd definitely recommend you guys to watch when you are free. PS: Jan Di's little brother is Kyung Min from 《我男人的女人》。Born in 1995, he has already won a few awards and is actually more experienced in acting than the Korean F4+ female leads.

Then it's 《痞子英雄》on ShuangXing. Another hilarious, yet exciting, but at times sad drama. I watched this because when the casts and director+producer夫妻 went to 小燕姐's 《百万小学堂》，she revealed that 赵又廷got an awful nosebleed after the hot scene of kissing隋棠。I'm anticipating it. =) By the way, did I really leave Taiwanese dramas that long? I can only recognise the older actors. Those newbies, I guess I only know 赵又廷, which is one of the main lead beside 周渝民。Although I had only watched 2 episodes (too), I'd recommend this too.

结论for this part：the genre for all dramas, regardless nationality, to attract young viewers currently is comedy. Of course, top it with endless romance scene and actions. ^^

Welcome to my world~