话说，我梦到很不可思议的事情……那就是……我结婚了！哈哈……给自己吓到莫……难道我就真的这么恨嫁吗？噢不！！！！！！！！！！一定是最近太多人结婚的后遗症……（硬是要找替死鬼）
梦的一开始很模糊……等到画面比较清楚时，我是莫名其妙在卫理小学blok B最高一楼的课室里（好像是3E班），而且还是一个人……对着外面的天空发呆，就像以前我参加校内比赛时，回答完题目后常常为了等时间流逝而做的事……不知道为什么，天灰灰的……突然我妈从楼下叫我，我就收拾好书包（真的是书包！还是陪我到处流浪，呃，不是啦，陪我上课、比赛、面试、露营的灰色书包）往楼下走去……梦唯一的好处就是，我的体力变很好，走5楼也没有问题……哈哈……结果，等待我的不是轿车，而是……van?! 不管了，人家都催我上车，我就上咯……打开门一看，哇哩叻，里面还有三对新人叻……等等！为什么他们都是成双成对，只有我独自一人背书包爬van？在一阵不解当中上车……放bag的时候，总觉得画面好熟悉，像我去槟城的样子……忽然看到了我的“新郎”……呃……这是谁啊？！根本不认识叻……有一点圆，像纳豆（故事教导我们，不可以在睡前看太多youtube，像我这样，就是去查他们恶搞super junior的《sorry, sorry》看到纳豆）不过有比较高一点……而且，诡异的是，他看到我也是很惊讶……难道，他是很无辜，不小心掉进我梦里的？不好意思啊……
一路上，我看到别对都手挽手地，好不亲昵……我也去挽那个陌生人的手臂……发现……我们根本不来电！什么东西！！！吐血……好痛苦地撑到了所谓的婚宴场所，就被安排去化妆还是什么的……（亲们，别敲我头啊……我真的不懂这是什么乱七八糟的梦）要走很窄很窄的楼梯（有点像某公会的）结果我跟其中一个新娘竟然错过楼梯（不懂为什么忽然出现6个楼梯口），一直转圈（是俗称的鬼遮眼还是鬼打墙吗？）
后来到了3楼，看到我爸在里面敬酒了，我忽然对妈咪说：
“妈，不然我先订婚好不好？”
“吓！为什么？”
“因为我现在还很年轻啊！说不定我上大学时遇到更好的人，如果只是订婚，我还可以解除婚约啊！如果现在就结婚了，那时还要离婚，不是很麻烦，又影响我的行情”
“你在胡说什么啊？！不准！给我去结婚！”
（我知道你们现在看到吐血了……我真的不懂这些怪台词哪来的……）
后来，我就放弃挣扎，决定接受命运的可笑安排……
突然我爆出这么一句话：“不知道来得及上厕所吗？”
妈咪：“来得及啦……赶快！”
（这段剧情告诉我们，梦里也会紧张想上厕所的时候XD）
结果我冲进厕所，忽然某个老妇人开门问：“需要我帮你拉裙角吗？”很慈祥的脸，不过就是有恐怖片的味道……在犹豫之间，忽然听到司仪宣布：“让我们欢迎……陈家与伍家……”
诶？那是我吗？
伍家？一定是因为我昨晚去看偽基百科看到五家（好像是anti-5566的东西）……还听到什么Alex……lol……
终于，我受不了这么荒唐的梦，醒了！后来回头想想，真的是太爆笑了，上来晒晒，跟大家分享，就当笑话一则，今天会很开心……呵呵……虽然我不是死忠的外貌协会成员，可是……梦里的那个人跟允浩也差太多了吧？
刚才去看了庭羽的部落格，发现，数理又倒回去用母语（小学）和国语（中学）。对于前一项，我是无任欢迎，因为我明白，小朋友要用自己最熟悉的语言读书，东西才会牢牢呆在脑袋瓜儿里……后面那项嘛，我个人不太希望学弟学妹跟我一样承受转换语言的痛苦，若直接用英语，相信他们到pre-u以上的时侯会比较好过……但是，有件事情我忽然想到，几开心的：
各位学弟学妹，学姐我这里什么种类的书都有……不论你们要有密密麻麻notes的，还是全新的；不论你们要pelangi的，还是sasbadi的，我都有。欢迎你们随时跟我联络买便宜的书籍哦～
在MSN碰到Allen，虽然很意外他最后的决定，可是，我还是很替他开心。能够逐梦的人，很幸福！加油，朋友！我们一家人都很支持，也很替你开心哦！
ps: I think you can show them your STPM results and get some exemption in form of course duration. In addition, I think you can get higher salary once you graduate. You can ask the teachers in school tomorrow.
Thursday, 9 July 2009
Monday, 6 July 2009
又是婚宴
最近好像日子很好厚？接二连三收到红色炸弹……星期六的我选择缺席，星期日的则是因为妈咪说去我才去的。为了注重人家的肖像权，我就没拍新郎新娘啦……我妈很惊讶现在诗巫的wedding planner这么厉害了……布置挺美的，司仪还两个叻……歌手超多的……
不过……我们的位置坐错，尤其是我，在音响的正下前方，用physics原理来算，我的地方就是constuctive inteference的地方……痛苦啊我…… 然后他们的选歌也很让人=.=一下……"baby, come and loosen my buttons yeah……" "frozen"让气氛冷很多去……不是全部的长辈能忍受这种歌曲拌饭吧？ “如果说你要离开我……”有让大家high起来啦……不过……张震岳的歌词……有点太新潮……《戏凤》的梗好像十年都没变诶……亏那些阿麽阿姨还能syok sendiri……《日不落》节奏太快，唱的人跟不上，我们也听得很累啊……所有的歌呢，要么不是很适合，要么就我们听到很辛苦（虽然他们的功力深厚，可是我们的耳朵被音响折磨整晚后，好歌都感动不了啊）
然后那天晚上很多女生的服装（也有几个不认老的伯伯）啊，让我们那桌的老师（就是我爸某个朋友的老婆）频频皱眉头……我妈也是受不了……因此每当我往右边一瞄，总是看到两个妇女非常不认同的表情……【好啦，满足一下大家的好奇心，就是低胸、露背、超级迷你裙『像潘玮柏的朋友jason说的：把腰带当裙子穿』、没有胸罩=.=、透明、半透明】后来啊，我们前面那桌和隔壁那桌的妇女（听说是情妇团？）开始high啦……一直喊叫……=.=……怎么又是我爸的朋友？！丢脸叻……40岁应该要有40岁的样子吧？就算要疯，也得顾虑一下自己的形象如何会影响在座的年轻人吧？ 唉……世风日下啊……（没有用错成语厚？）
然后家属敬酒时，台上喊最大声的就是新郎的老爸了……也就是我老爸的朋友啦……真正的酒友=.=……司仪嘛足怪一下……一直说：“够了啦够了啦，喊那么长做什么？胜！”然后就打断大家，自顾自地干了……后来，新郎的爸爸、妈妈、、姐姐（我今天才懂是大姐，不是怪怪的伴娘……哈哈）、妹妹都拿啤酒一桌一桌干杯……连续三、四杯，我们看的是很担心啊……新郎的爸爸到我们那桌时早就醉了……还在饮……=.=……
后来我爸的另一个朋友的20岁女儿（跟我同年哦）来要跟我爸干……我不希望老爸喝到5罐去，所以出手阻止，还好那个女生挺识相的，真的不敢倒，可是老爸不忍看她没面子，就批准她倒一点点……其他朋友就笑说：“哟～女儿管爸爸啊？”我就微笑着点头，看看谁敢给我再讲什么……若难听的话敢骂出来，我也不会客气……我爸也不敢骂我，因为他知道我若发火，绝不好玩……回到家仔细想想，原来帅气的阻挡pose和微笑是有威的……哈哈哈……看来临教三个月的磨练没有白费啊～哈哈……
原本想说若老爸喝个三五罐，我还是让他驾车（因为高跟鞋很难驾manual的车），可是由于我们太慢出来，旁边后面的车都驾走了，我决定换鞋驾……人说“驾车不喝酒，喝酒不驾车”嘛……我有很乖的……虽然老爸不至于醉了（酒量太好有时也是麻烦，劝这种人很上火，还的顾虑他们会不会忽然翻脸），可是如果那时被警察叔叔抓去酒测，铁定不过的啦……
现在发现，会驾车真的是件好事，虽然，被人载比较幸福啦……（仅仅限于会认路的司机，碰上路痴，自己会吐血 【对啦，仙，就是讲你了……哈哈……】；那些认路很厉害的人，或驾很久了的，就驾得很危险，自己口吐白沫【大哥，我绝对没有说是你……哈哈……】）
还有啊，以后我找的老公可以会喝酒，但是要会控制自己……我不想为他担心～
好了，终于写完原本该在星期日晚上upload的blog了……呵呵……最近会依然很忙……然后，要赶着把灵感凑成文章……还有很多很多仿佛做不完的tasks……给自己加油，也给愿意赏脸看完本篇文章的你打气～
生活里凡事谢恩，日子会很开心顺遂哦～ ^^
Saturday, 4 July 2009
Thursday, 2 July 2009
Just a sharing~
I'm still quite confused as on which road shall I embark, so I'll just post this up. It's a sharing, and hope it gives you a new thought on this matter.
Why go to Church? (Interesting)
If you're spiritually alive, you're going to love this! If you're spiritually dead, you won't want to read it. If you're spiritually curious, there is still hope!
A Church goer wrote a letter to the editor of a newspaper and complained that it made no sense to go to church every Sunday..
"I've gone for 30 years now," he wrote, "and in that time I have heard something like 3,000 sermons. But for the life of me, I can't remember a single one of them. So, I think I'm wasting my time and the pastors are wasting theirs by giving sermons at all."
This started a real controversy in the "Letters to the Editor" column, much to the delight of the editor.
It went on for weeks until someone wrote this clincher:
"I've been married for 30 years now. In that time my wife has cooked some 32,000 meals. But, for the life of me, I cannot recall the entire menu for a single one of those meals.. But I do know this ... They all nourished me and gave me the strength I needed to do my work. If my wife had not given me these meals, I would be physically dead today. Likewise, if I had not gone to church for nourishment, I would be spiritually dead today!"
When you are DOWN to nothing.... God is UP to something!
Faith sees the invisible, believes the incredible and receives the impossible!
Thank God for our physical AND our spiritual nourishment!
Okay, this is an extra below the forwarded e-mail, which I think is pretty nice.
I think everyone should read this! "
When Satan is knocking at your door, simply say, "Jesus, could you get that for me?"
To my friends, if you have time, please put me in your prayers. I don't request for a large space (although I'm not slim XD), I just hope that if more people pray for me, then I'll be tougher and stronger, physically and mentally to march on. Honestly speaking, I had never been this weak. It's not that I don't believe God, it's that I'm afraid. The sense of not knowing what's going to happen in the future and how smooth or rough it's going to be really scares me. People often says, think of the worst scenario, and tell yourself nothing's going to be worst than that. But then, I suddenly become unsure what's that "WORST SCENARIO". I lost all my confidence over the weeks. Mental turmoil, that is. I practically hypnosies myself by thinking of all kinds of impossible things to make myself better. I got my eyes glued to computer and tv screens just to temporarily escape reality. I don't dare to touch my bible. I'm helpless (not hopeless yet, I'm sure). I prayed so hard, harder than anytime in my life (ok, that's 20 years till now), even harder than when I'm in National Service, and yet still feel unsafe. The uncertainty of everything leads me to nothing but tears. After crying and typing, I still feel as if there's a heavy stone in my chest. Unable to breathe~ Unable to think~
God, help me... Help this lil' child of yours.. Please...
Why go to Church? (Interesting)
If you're spiritually alive, you're going to love this! If you're spiritually dead, you won't want to read it. If you're spiritually curious, there is still hope!
A Church goer wrote a letter to the editor of a newspaper and complained that it made no sense to go to church every Sunday..
"I've gone for 30 years now," he wrote, "and in that time I have heard something like 3,000 sermons. But for the life of me, I can't remember a single one of them. So, I think I'm wasting my time and the pastors are wasting theirs by giving sermons at all."
This started a real controversy in the "Letters to the Editor" column, much to the delight of the editor.
It went on for weeks until someone wrote this clincher:
"I've been married for 30 years now. In that time my wife has cooked some 32,000 meals. But, for the life of me, I cannot recall the entire menu for a single one of those meals.. But I do know this ... They all nourished me and gave me the strength I needed to do my work. If my wife had not given me these meals, I would be physically dead today. Likewise, if I had not gone to church for nourishment, I would be spiritually dead today!"
When you are DOWN to nothing.... God is UP to something!
Faith sees the invisible, believes the incredible and receives the impossible!
Thank God for our physical AND our spiritual nourishment!
Okay, this is an extra below the forwarded e-mail, which I think is pretty nice.
I think everyone should read this! "
When Satan is knocking at your door, simply say, "Jesus, could you get that for me?"
To my friends, if you have time, please put me in your prayers. I don't request for a large space (although I'm not slim XD), I just hope that if more people pray for me, then I'll be tougher and stronger, physically and mentally to march on. Honestly speaking, I had never been this weak. It's not that I don't believe God, it's that I'm afraid. The sense of not knowing what's going to happen in the future and how smooth or rough it's going to be really scares me. People often says, think of the worst scenario, and tell yourself nothing's going to be worst than that. But then, I suddenly become unsure what's that "WORST SCENARIO". I lost all my confidence over the weeks. Mental turmoil, that is. I practically hypnosies myself by thinking of all kinds of impossible things to make myself better. I got my eyes glued to computer and tv screens just to temporarily escape reality. I don't dare to touch my bible. I'm helpless (not hopeless yet, I'm sure). I prayed so hard, harder than anytime in my life (ok, that's 20 years till now), even harder than when I'm in National Service, and yet still feel unsafe. The uncertainty of everything leads me to nothing but tears. After crying and typing, I still feel as if there's a heavy stone in my chest. Unable to breathe~ Unable to think~
God, help me... Help this lil' child of yours.. Please...
Wednesday, 1 July 2009
茫
我还是举棋不定……慌、怕、茫、哭、无助、无力、乱、呆……总之乱七八糟的念头都闪过我的脑海，但是快得让我来不及捉住……我忽然不懂潇洒怎么写……
上帝啊，
求袮怜悯我，
求你让我圆梦，
求袮引领我，
求你让我不再彷徨……
我真的很怕……心里没底的感觉很恐怖很可怕……仿佛深不见底的深渊，摔下去，是粉身碎骨还是瞬间消失？未知的未来，不可预见的未来，都让我突然害怕……
我找不到袮的那明灯，
我看不到袮慈祥的脸，
我摸不到袮温暖的手，
我听不到你安慰的声，
我只感觉到自己冷冷的泪水，
和
一颗软弱的心……
主啊，告诉我，我该怎么做，才能顺利度过这关考验呢？我知道，袮不会设下我无法跨越的鸿沟，原谅我的懦弱……
上帝啊，
求袮怜悯我，
求你让我圆梦，
求袮引领我，
求你让我不再彷徨……
我真的很怕……心里没底的感觉很恐怖很可怕……仿佛深不见底的深渊，摔下去，是粉身碎骨还是瞬间消失？未知的未来，不可预见的未来，都让我突然害怕……
我找不到袮的那明灯，
我看不到袮慈祥的脸，
我摸不到袮温暖的手，
我听不到你安慰的声，
我只感觉到自己冷冷的泪水，
和
一颗软弱的心……
主啊，告诉我，我该怎么做，才能顺利度过这关考验呢？我知道，袮不会设下我无法跨越的鸿沟，原谅我的懦弱……
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